I can't decide if I'm upset I got rejected for the third time by the Writer's Workshop here at Iowa, or if I'm upset that I'm even stopping to think about it. It's not like I was expecting to get in, and if for some reason I were to be accepted by both the Workshop and the English program, I probably would have said no to the Workshop.

Let's pretend that I'm upset over caring at all - over letting it get to me.

Still waiting on English. Few weeks yet. Still feeling pretty good about it.

Also, unless something changes (like I don't get into English and get a PhD), I'm done applying to MFA programs. It's become too personal for me and it's just not worth the energy. If we leave Iowa City and I have no post-graduate degree at all, I'll apply to MFA programs again. Hopefully by that point someone might actually want me.

What a waste of time and energy here for Iowa, though. I can't believe I've been so stupid. Three times applying and three times getting rejected. I should have stopped at one.